1 Corinthians 10:12-13 (New International Version)
12 So, if you think you are standing firm, be careful that you don’t fall! 13 No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.
It has been easy for me to think that since starting this fast I would be impervious to many of the temptations the devil would throw my way.
oh contraire mon frere
Along with an ever growing thankfulness, I also also wanted to foster a purity of thought that I have struggled to achieve (with any consistency) for some time. My weakest moments tend to be at night especially when I can't sleep. Last night I couldn't sleep. But this was nothing new. I had been dealing well with any unsavory thoughts and casting them out of my mind since the new year.
Well, the devil had another trick up his sleeve along with my dangerously expanding sense of security. When I don't feel good I have a tendency to let my guard down even further. The last several days I have struggled with what Peter Lemonjello would describe as "compulsive gambling". Makes walking around and sitting down quite uncomfortable. You get the drift.
Anyways, it was a battle last night. I hung in there but it was tough.
I'm going to try and not get caught off guard again.
I should have known better but Jesus didn't go out into the wilderness to avoid temptation.....rather to prepare to meet it.