My knees are aching. I know this is not uncommon. Many of us ache when injuries occur. Blunt force trauma, breaks, cuts, tears. My knees are aching to walk, to run, to stretch. They are aching because of inactivity. I so desperately want to go for a jog. I'm bored. I'm blessed. Even when I do my best, I'm left longing for better things. I can't wait to once again revel in the blessings God has given me. But why can't I now? I guess I can. I just forget.
Its a strange thing to ache to do something. We all desire. We all have wants and needs, but I want to walk. Is it too much too ask? Although I know its not true, I feel that if I could just get up and take a stroll I would be utterly satisfied. I feel like I would never have another desire if this one dream is fulfilled. When I stretch my legs around the block, I will again hop, skip, and jump....but not now. Now is the time to appreciate what I have. Yet now is not what I fixate on. I fixate on my hopes. I hope things will be better even when they aren't bad. Why? I'm not sure.
I've given up seven different things. From these I've learned that there are at least 7 things I value, some more than other. I've learned that none of these are worth a hill of beans without God. How empty would life be without him? I can't imagine. I can't imagine constantly chasing after the next best thing when the one good thing was sitting right in front of me. Deep, I know. But true. Its nice tapping into that truth. My boredom will last for another 20 minutes till I find something to do. My blessings will last forever.